be·nev·o·lence: an illusion of goodness

In definition benevolence is stated as: the unbiased kindness to do good or an inclination to perform kind, charitable acts.  It does not however underline the reason why someone would choose to do these things unabashedly.  Is it possible for us to be selfless anymore? To act without any thought of reward? In this egocentric, over achieving world is it really possible to be benevolent anymore?

In the fall of 2007 I performed in a play at the Tarragon Theatre titled, Benevolence, by Morris Panych. At the play’s central core is a message of goodness, but also how generosity and kindness can be an illusion.

“Charity is not about giving, it’s about fulfilling needs.” Isn’t that what charity is?  Trying to buy something? forgiveness or gratitude or temporary unimpeded passage.” – ‘Benevolence’ by Morris Panych

Charity is also used to attain. To advance ourselves, even unconsciously. The outcome is rarely just what we can do but also what can be done for us. Volunteering looks good on a resume. Helping an elderly person off the streetcar gets you a smile from a pretty girl. Would you really put your coat over a puddle for nothing?

“It is not from the benevolence of the butcher, the brewer, or the baker that we expect our dinner, but from their regard to their own interest.” – Adam Smith

Morris’s play defined for me the tension as an actor, an opposite, a pull and push, but I also wanted to explore the idea through paint. By using a limited palette I am causing an immediate restriction with colour. Using raw canvas I limit my ability to define, as the medium does not allow for sharpness. Raw canvas is forgiving and unforgiving; it allows a freedom in creating composition but absorbs everything you put on it. Mistakes must become part of the story. The result is that the push and pull of charity vs. gain created an organic, cosmic dimension that questions how “goodness” is truly perceived. Exploring the dynamic of goodness and its true opposites comes out as a world within a world. Which is in control? Who is winning?

I hope that in this series of pieces you will question your own understanding of what it means to truly have a benevolent spirit.  And perhaps see that there isn’t benevolence without it’s opposite.